Boy, has this week been busy! I realize I keep writing about hectic days over and over, but this week has been over the top!
In between exams, presentations and re decorating I have barely had time to sleep. This weekend should have been spent either getting some rest before next week starting up again, or starting on my assignments that are due next week but no, I am working 12 hours Saturday and Sunday. At least I am being productive right?
On Wednesday I had a 20 minutes presentation for my feminism module and on Thursday I had an exam for another module. Because the beginning of the week I was putting furniture together – something that took way longer than I anticipated I was suddenly a bit behind on my presentation, and ended up spending all night before fixing it up and adding to it.
By the day of the presentation I felt ready and walked in with mounts of confident. That was until we got into the room and got ready. And what happened – the stage fright! The dreaded stage fright! Suddenly it occurred to me what a sensitive and awkward topic my presentation was about, reproductive rights since the 1960s.
So there I was, on stage, visibly nervous with shaky voice, shaky voice and occasionally little black outs as to what I was saying.
I walked out of there feeling humiliated and stupid but with no time to wallow, I had an exam the next day.
Because my presentation went worse than I thought it would, I was determined to make sure I knocked the exam out of the park.
I already felt prepared, but I had to make absolutely sure. So I went home, slept for 4 hours, and stayed up all night and morning before it, reading and preparing.
I took all the exams I could find from previous years something that made me feel completely confident I would ace it, I knew it all! Or at least that’s what I thought.
Taking the exam, the questions were different that what I had prepared for, and in addition I again got a bit of a black out and could not get my timeline in order. I still dont know exactly how it went, but I have a bad feeling about it. I was kicking myself the whole way home. especially because I felt so confident going in and had such high hopes and standards for it.
Oh well, I have two assignments due next week, and with a little luck and a lot hard work I can make up for this weeks disappointments.
So, another week spent reading and working ahead, if they go well, I will still be enjoying my Christmas holiday.
Today however, it is time to change focus, from politics and academia to healthcare and caring for residents for the next two days.
As you are reading this I will be at work, hopefully being more successful than what I have been previous in this week!
Have a great weekend everybody! Enjoy yourselves whatever you are up to.