Presentations, Exams and Study, Study, Study

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My campus at sunset, Canary Wharf in the background

Boy, has this week been busy! I realize I keep writing about hectic days over and over, but this week has been over the top!

In between exams, presentations and re decorating I have barely had time to sleep. This weekend should have been spent either getting some rest before next week starting up again, or starting on my assignments that are due next week but no, I am working 12 hours Saturday and Sunday. At least I am being productive right?

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On Wednesday I had a 20 minutes presentation for my feminism module and on Thursday I had an exam for another module. Because the beginning of the week I was putting furniture together – something that took way longer than I anticipated I was suddenly a bit behind on my presentation, and ended up spending all night before fixing it up and adding to it.
By the day of the presentation I felt ready and walked in with mounts of confident. That was until we got into the room and got ready. And what happened – the stage fright! The dreaded stage fright! Suddenly it occurred to me what a sensitive and awkward topic my presentation was about, reproductive rights since the 1960s.

So there I was, on stage, visibly nervous with shaky voice, shaky voice and occasionally little black outs as to what I was saying.
I walked out of there feeling humiliated and stupid but with no time to wallow, I had an exam the next day.

Because my presentation went worse than I thought it would, I was determined to make sure I knocked the exam out of the park.
I already felt prepared, but I had to make absolutely sure. So I went home, slept for 4 hours, and stayed up all night and morning before it, reading and preparing.

img_20161216_192204I took all the exams I could find from previous years something that made me feel completely confident I would ace it, I knew it all! Or at least that’s what I thought.
Taking the exam, the questions were different that what I had prepared for, and in addition I again got a bit of a black out and could not get my timeline in order. I still dont know exactly how it went, but I have a bad feeling about it. I was kicking myself the whole way home. especially because I felt so confident going in and had such high hopes and standards for it.

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One exhausted girl Thursday night!

Oh well, I have two assignments due next week, and with a little luck and a lot hard work I can make up for this weeks disappointments.

So, another week spent reading and working ahead, if they go well, I will still be enjoying my  Christmas holiday.

Today however, it is time to change focus, from politics and academia to healthcare and caring for residents for the next two days.

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Of to work we go!

As you are reading this I will be at work, hopefully being more successful than what I have been previous in this week!

Have a great weekend everybody! Enjoy yourselves whatever you are up to.

– Camilla

 

Interior – Before Livingroom Changes

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Happy Sunday everybody!

This has been an unsocial weekend for me, with Greg away and me being swamped with upcoming deadlines and exams at Uni. I wish I could say that I have got a great start to it this weekend, but my concentration has not been great, so much work to be done tonight and the upcoming days!

However, I am so excited for tomorrow because our new furniture is finally arriving! Like I said in the previous post, I was at IKEA on Friday to get some decorative stuff to add the final touches to it but they are all still in the bags waiting to be brought out on Monday!

This is entirely my own project – I say that as if it is a highly important work project I know, but it is my own in the sense that Greg does not know what the result will be or know what any of the furniture is. I wanted to show him that I have great interior design skills and add a bit of a feminine touch to our home. In other words show him how great I can make this place. I want to wow him.
Now I am getting slightly worried that it will not look like what I have had in mind, that the colours will clash or that it just wont look right. Hopefully though, it will look very homely and beautiful. I want a place where we can truly relax and feel at home. A place to lower out shoulders, and give us peace in this very busy city we live in.
Before the “transformation” I want to show you the before pictures of how the place looks like now.
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As for the rest of yesterday, after giving a million tries to study well, I took a little break to spend some time Greg when he came home. He has been gone with work so much this week, so it was so good to have him home for a while.
I made us some propper weekend food – Tacos, and afterwards we had cheesecake and cookies and watched a few episodes of Ellen. I LOVE that woman!
Here are some photos of our evening:
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I hope you all have a great end to the week and wishing you a fantastic week to come!

– Camilla

Friday Night Home Alone

Good Friday evening everybody!

These last few weeks has gone so quick! I cannot belive we are already in December, the last month of the year. Christmas is right around the corner and so is uni deadlines and exams.

It has been a hectic month for me so far. Trying to prepare for everything at uni as well as keeping up with the social calendar of December is tricky enough, but in addition this bad cold has been going around and of course I caught it!

Tonight Greg is in Bristol with work and I have so many deadlines coming up so I have had to stay inn and working on them. Hooray for Friday night! No, all jokes aside – it could be age – or delusion but I am really enjoying spending some time indoors tonight, with Pizza, Pepsi Max and snacks. And even when it is spent working on my assignments. I must be growing up haha!
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Lately I have become so bored and annoyed at our living room furnishing. Something that is ironic since i am actually the one who furnished in the first place. Suddenly I realized that our place really lack that “homey” feeling and really is quite disastrous colour coordinated. Somehow as I was decorating it, I made it dark and look like a place two bachelors would share rather than a nice cozy home.
So at the beginning at the month I planned for and ordered new furniture and they arrive already on Monday! I keep talking about it as my master project. I am so excited! Earlier today I went and got some decorations and final touches for the living room at IKEA, and I cannot wait to show you when it is all in place!
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This was my little update for today! I am now about to watch an episode of Everybody Loves Raymond, before continuing with my uni work for a bit before bed.

Will talk to you again tomorrow.

– Camilla

 

Last Week and a New Focus

Good morning beautiful people!

I am getting ready to head out to work, but before I do that I thought I would give an update and a summary with the highs and lows from the week that just passed.

I have been away for some weeks now. We have had some highs and lows here that I have been working through. But it is all worked through now and I am back to normal, and hopefully will be better than ever!

In the week that was I have worked towards getting myself healthy and feel my best. After a few health scares and feeling unhealthy my focus has gone from heating and working out to look my best, so eating, living and working out in a way that benefits my health.
It is a work in progress and I have had good days and days that I have been less successful but I am getting there!
I hope that in this week I will not have any setbacks and be 100% dedicated to being healthy. I have realized that being happy and healthy is much more important than being thin, or have great skinn or being well toned and that way I feel more relaxed and much happier.

Well, back to the week that was.

High point of the week:
On Thursday Greg took me out for a super nice date! We went to central and ate tapas before going for ice cream. It was great to get to spend some one on one time without any distractions. The food was amazing and the company was even better!
How lucky am I to be with this amazing man!

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Low point of the week:
The low point of my week must have been yesterday, when Greg and I was watching the Saints and the Broncos and just as we were getting super excited that they were about to win, the Broncos blocked the last field goal and we lost the game! We were so disappointed!

Surprise of the week:
Trump won the election! Like so many else I am just stunned that Donald Trump won the election in America. I was up watching some of the election and I could not believe he was in the lead. I was even more surprised waking up to the news that he won! Who would have though a year ago that he would actually be president. It just goes to show that anything can happen, so at least that is a good life lesson.

I have in general had a great week, and been getting on track with food, sleep and in general feeling very uplifted and happy.
Having said that I could not get to sleep last night, and ended up with only 3 hours of sleep so I am dreading spending 12 hours as a health care assistant today. Being on such a long shift in a job were you need to be very present for the residents and the people you are looking after is very challenging when being sleep deprived.
However I am determined to keep up a good spirit and just keep in mind that at the end of the day I will get a great night sleep. And keep the coffee coming!

Have a great day everyone!

– Camilla

Date Night in Soho

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Good evening!

After a day of some studying and some TV watching, I met Greg after he finished work for a date night in the city.

Because I dont have any lectures on Fridays and this is the first week back at uni, I allowed myself to a bit of a relaxed day. After a couple hours of light studying, I spent the day with some day time TV watching whilst I made a slightly unhealthy but delicious lunch.

A few days ago Greg suggested that we should go to Soho after work today and eat dinner out. It has been a while since I have gone out on a date with Greg, as I said in my previous post I have been in a mode lately where I have wanted to stay in an just relax most days. But as I am changing that now, we went out and I had such a nice time!
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We met up in Piccadilly Circus and walked to this Greg restaurant that makes pizza and pasta. You simply order by the counter and chooses your choice, which they heat up and you bring to your seat.
It is like a canteen theme, only the food was so good and it looks like a restaurant with really nice interior.
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After dinner we walked down Oxford Street and looked in a few shops before heading to Trafalgar Square for a look around.
When Greg first moved to London Trafalgar Square was one of the first places I took him to and it is one of his favorite places in London.
It is quite nice, it is lively yet it has far fewer people than busy places like Oxford Street and Piccadilly Circus.
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Now I super full after dinner and then snacks that we had after coming home. Greg is sound asleep but I am still wide awake – snoozing half the morning today was probably not the greatest idea.

I am so excited for the weekend now. I haven’t made any plans yet, because I thought I was going to work this weekend but it turns out that I have this weekend of!
I probably will do a bit of exercise, a bit of study and the rest just do what I want. Unless we decide to go out and see something.

I wish you all a great weekend and hope you will enjoy it!

Talk to you tomorrow!

– Camilla

Packing for Greece!

Good evening!

Tomorrow is Friday and I will finally be of for my holiday!
After work I am going straight to Gatwick airport to fly to Norway where our plane to Greece leaves the next morning.

I am now home trying to pack, while taking breaks to watch The Big Bang Theory.

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I was on a really good roll, until when I emptied out my suitcase and found a big spider in there. I have a huge phobia for spiders and there is no way I can continue getting the suitcase ready after seeing that beast in there! So the packing will go on after Greg has come home and got rid of the spider. Hope he wont be too late..

I am so ready for a holiday!
My bad neck that started almost two weeks ago has continued until now and spread to my back and shoulders.
I have not been able to sleep well either as laying my head down hurts my neck and I have kept waking up because my neck tuggs in the middle of the night.
To make it even worse I tripped and fell over on the way to work on Tuesday, something that only I could manage to do. Guess at 26 years old I am STILL tripping over on my own feet.
So now my knees and arms are all scratched up and achy, not to mention that the fall did not exactly do wonders for my neck!

Because I have been so busy I havent got a chance to collect myself and given my body the rest to heal, I think that is why it still has not gotten better. Work has been so busy, that even on the worst day, calling in sick or taking it easy at work has not been an option.

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I do belive though that two weeks with relaxation, warmth and swimming will fix my body right up.
I am hoping to be fine within the first few days, and if I take it easy and listen to my body I think that is reasonable to believe that I will be.

Well, I better wash up a little bit before Greg gets home and then finish packing.

Talk to you later!

– Camilla

26 Going On 90

Worst possible start to the week!
Early this morning I got up to get some water and as I sat up in bed and looked to my side I felt a little click in my neck and a painful icing feeling rushed down my side.
That was it for the day, my neck locked itself and all day I have not been able to move my neck a milliliter without getting a shock of pain down my neck and back.

Today that I had planned to be such a nice day and great start to the week turned out a complete fiasco.

The first hour of the morning I walked around the living room in desperation to get my neck to stop hurting. If I stood up, sat down or walked around, it wouldn’t make a difference, I got such painful crams in the neck not matter what I did. Lying down was not an option as it was far to painful, not to mention that even with the help of Greg I could barely get back up.
I have had a stiff neck that could spasm a little a few times in the past, but it has never even come close to what it was today. After having put a hot water bottle around it for over an hour the spasms became less intense and I was left with a neck that I could not move but at least it wasn’t painful unless I accidentally moved it.

I struggled for a while to get my clothes on, and I had to get Greg to make my breakfast. (Isn’t he sweet) A shower was our of the question and so was putting any make up on.

So off to work I went, with a head tilted to the left, slightly gross, unwashed and with a pale undone face. I defiantly did not look ready for a work environment.
After walking three times slower than I normally would to the train station I arrived only to find out my train had been cancelled and therefore the next one was packed.

I was so terrified anyone would bump into me I kept putting my hands in front of me as for protection. I can only imagine how ridiculous I must have looked standing with a crocked back, a awkwardly positioned head and my hands in front of me.
I did feel like I was 90 years old, and I am sure I looked the part too!

Being delayed by the train I was 15 minutes late to work, so everyone was there as I came in and as I walked in the door everyone started asking “What happened too you?” A bit embarrassed I answered “Is it that obvious?” to what I got the reply “Oh my god what happened to your neck??”
When I left my house I thought perhaps no one would notice and my frail appearance was all in my head, but apparently not.

At work we tried everything we could possible do, the nurses brought me painkillers, heating lotions, muscle lotions, and lotions to ease pain. The OT gave me tips to exercises I could do to loosen my neck, but nothing worked! In fact the longer I sat at my desk, the stiffer my neck got and the more the muscles in my back started acting up. By the time I left work I felt so tired just from holding my own head up.

I tried going to bed at 9 today, as I am absolutely exhausted, both from lack of sleep last night and being so tired in my body. All I want right now is to relax my back.
But lying in bed my neck started cramping so much I had to get up. (something that took about 20 minutes to do haha).

So here I am sitting up next to Greg with my head staring forward and with my Pingu penguin water bottle strapped to my neck.
What a fantastic way to start the week! My body is starting my match the age of my old soul.

In all seriousness though I hope and pray it will be gone by tomorrow, so I can write a less complaining post and embarrass myself slightly less. How I miss mobility!

– Camilla