May Resolutions

It is now Tuesday evening, and I am writing my first post in over a year.

Over the past year not much has changed apart from been working heaps and just trying to stay on track in life. You all know what its like. The weeks has just seemed to rush past me and before I know it the seasons has changed and even little things that I was going to get done in a day or a week is suddenly not really done in a year!

At the beginning of this year I said to myself that I wanted to eat better and be healthier, be more social with friends and find a job that is relevant to my degree. Well, so far I don’t have any impressive results to show anyone. I pushed things to the next day and next day and time did this trick on me where it somehow fast-forwarded to may.. MAY! However, I am refusing to keep this bad record and from now on I will be following my plan in all areas that I can and to keep myself accountable I will be updating my progress here. Nothing like the threat of public humiliation (from my 2 followers haha) to keep a girl to her goals so keep up!

Other than that life is more of less the same as before and going really well. I am still living with Greg and loving my relationship with him. I don’t want to jinx myself but I have to say that I have never felt closer to him or felt that we are doing better than now and I feel really blessed in that. I do like my job that I have now, it is close so I can walk there and I like the job itself. The reason that I am wanting to get a new job is only because my job that I have now is as a support worker for people with disabilities and I have been doing this type of work since I was 19 years old and my degree is in a completely different field. I want to find a job that I can grow and that is related to my degree. Anyway for now I am happy at work, which may actually be the problem because I am so comfortable it is not making me feel any urgency to go and find something else.

I don’t think that there is much new to report! I am currently sitting here eating Cadbury chocolate and Doritos because tomorrow I am starting my diet! I am excited to start blogging again and dscf1601I will update with my results on Friday, Wish me luck!

Cam xxx

 

Goals for the week

Its  a new week and a fresh start! Time for new goals and a clean slate!

Everyone always talk about how they hate Mondays, but I actually quite like them. It feels like a new start, just as the beginning of the year feels like.

I also often work long hours on the weekend and at the end of the week since I am a student on week days so that might be a part of my love for Mondays. Uni life feels more relaxed than working hours, even though the uni work load is much more. It  is probably because the hours you study is more flexible to manage that hours that you are at work.

Since it is Monday today and a new week is commencing, I have set myself 5 simple goals for the week:

  1. Go for a Run and exercise minimum 4 times
  2. Eat healthy the entire week, and only have chocolate or candy 1 day in the week
  3. Spend minimum 35 hours on uni work this week
  4. Answer messages as soon as they come and keep in touch with friends
  5. Stay positive

  This Monday has been a great start to the week. I have been for a lecture at uni that was really interesting, cleared up at home a little bit and made Greg and I tacos for dinner.
Here are a few pictures from my day today so far;

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I will take the rest of the evening off now, and watch some Big Bang Theory or Silent Witness on the TV when Greg finishes his play station game.

What goals have you guys made for the week?

 

– Camilla

New Job!

Good morning guys!

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This morning I have been for  a run, done some exercises and now I am enjoying my breakfast whilst watching the Kardashians and gathering the energy for a productive day. Wohoo!

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I have fallen slightly behind on my uni work the last few weeks, so I have some major catch up to do over the next few days.

A week ago I got an extra job as a waitress! As the summer is sneaking up on us slowly but surely I felt that I needed some extra money for holidays and etc, not to mention that uni is soon over and I dont know yet if I will be able to go for my masters after the summer or how long it will take me to get a full time job if I dont go on studying straight away.

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I really like my new job and the people there, much more than I thought I would actually, however I have to be very disciplined with getting my work done for uni now that I am working more  hours than  am used to and the last few days has been a bit of a slip. But that all changes today!
I am getting super stressed that we are already in March, both in terms of all the work I have leading up for the end of the term, but also that three years of uni is coming to an end. I defiantly feel that I am not done studying and the unknown about what I will be doing after the summer is quite stressfull. Time is just going to fast and I almost feel that life is passing me by! That might be a bit of a stretch but you get what I mean. Therefore I feel that it is super important that I make the most out of the next two months to stay on top of everything.

I got next to no sleep last night, so that will be a challenge when I am trying to read and learn today, but with a few cups of coffee and some good old will power I think I will be alright.
Luckily I got of to a good start with my work out and a good energetic breakfast. I also have a few errands to run today, such as getting a haircut for my poor neglected hair!

What are you guys up to today?

I wish you all a good and productive day!

– Camilla

 

Perfect Private Valentine

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Hello from South London!
I hope everyone had a great valentines day yesterday with friends, partners of family.

We did not go out for valentines, but stayed home instead. We figured the restaurants would be fully booked and it seemed like more hassel than fun to get out in the crowd. I am someone who likes to celebrate as things happen and not on a later date. Both with Christmas, birthdays and valentines I always feel bad celebrating it before or after the actual date.

Greg ended up making a three course meal when he came home from work and it was excellent!
We have been watching the British show Dinner Date,  show where people go on blind dates and cooks each other a three course meal and then they rate one another.
Our valentines were heavily inspired by this show so we made valentines our own private Dinner Date. We are not exactly strangers but well well.
In between courses we snapped each other the “interviews” as they do on the show where they tell the audience how the date is going. It is killing me that I do not have Greg’s snaps because they were hilarious!

Anyway, here is some picture drizzles from our Dinner Date/ Valentines date;

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Getting Greg’s snaps from the kitchen!

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My valentines present a bathrobe!
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So comfy! 

That was our Valentines day! I hope you all had a great day or night!

– Camilla

Friday Night Home Alone

Good Friday evening everybody!

These last few weeks has gone so quick! I cannot belive we are already in December, the last month of the year. Christmas is right around the corner and so is uni deadlines and exams.

It has been a hectic month for me so far. Trying to prepare for everything at uni as well as keeping up with the social calendar of December is tricky enough, but in addition this bad cold has been going around and of course I caught it!

Tonight Greg is in Bristol with work and I have so many deadlines coming up so I have had to stay inn and working on them. Hooray for Friday night! No, all jokes aside – it could be age – or delusion but I am really enjoying spending some time indoors tonight, with Pizza, Pepsi Max and snacks. And even when it is spent working on my assignments. I must be growing up haha!
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Lately I have become so bored and annoyed at our living room furnishing. Something that is ironic since i am actually the one who furnished in the first place. Suddenly I realized that our place really lack that “homey” feeling and really is quite disastrous colour coordinated. Somehow as I was decorating it, I made it dark and look like a place two bachelors would share rather than a nice cozy home.
So at the beginning at the month I planned for and ordered new furniture and they arrive already on Monday! I keep talking about it as my master project. I am so excited! Earlier today I went and got some decorations and final touches for the living room at IKEA, and I cannot wait to show you when it is all in place!
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This was my little update for today! I am now about to watch an episode of Everybody Loves Raymond, before continuing with my uni work for a bit before bed.

Will talk to you again tomorrow.

– Camilla

 

July – hopes and goals

July is here!

I cant believe we are in the 7th month of the year already!

After having reflected on June last night, I am now thinking forward to July.
On my walk to work this morning I started planning the coming month. I think that thinking back to what went right and what went wrong last month, I got in a space where I want to keep improving month by month.

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This is a big month for myself and Greg too. I have to sort out everything for the next year of uni, I have a lot of training to pass for work and most importantly, Greg and I have to find our apartment this month, sooner rather than later as we must have moved in somewhere by the 5th of August. So pressure is ON!
That of course also means that we both have to save most of our income, as getting a place becomes very expensive with rent in advance, agency fees and deposits.

Here are my 5 goals and hopes for July:

Finding an apartment:
This is the number one priority. Most of what I do this month will be in order to work towards getting a place, we are in a bit of a time crunch, BUT we will do it! And of course keep you updated on our way there!

Saving money and reducing spending.. ..Like a lot!
As I said above, finding a place is expensive and this month we will need to pay rent where we live, pay rent where we will be going and put down a deposit. So a lot of budget dinners, less Costa coffees and I will be trying to use less public transport and walk where I can. On the positive side, you might have fun watching me trying to live of more or less nothing.. Good budget tips coming up this month!

Eating healthy and cutting down on sugar:
I terrible when it comes to watching what I eat and I defiantly eat far too much sugar. This last month when I watched it more and was living on better food I could absolutely tell how much better I felt. Last night after writing about how good I have been on watching the sugar and what food and drinks I have, I broke my diet and had so much chocolate and sweets (and right after I said I have been so good arg) and I started feeling really sick and tired. That in it self should be enough motivation to keep me on the good path this month. If not that, the fact that I am saving and probably cannot afford to buy too much sugar and fast food should do the trick. There is an upside to everything right?

Staying active:
I have a goal in my head that I will run everyday and walk and run both ways to work on days that I am working. I dont know yet if it is doable, especially since each way to work is a two hour walk and we do 12 hour shifts where we are basically on our feet constantly, but I will try and see. If that is not doable, I will want to t least run 4 days a week and walk at least one way to work. And again, it saves money too right?

Avoid complaining and do what I can for others:
Lately I become such a negative Nelly and I complain to Greg about all my worries and always tell him whatever negative has happened to me that day. And on so many days I focus on the negative. I dont want to be like that! I used to be very positive but lately I have not really been. So I will focus on what is good instead. And both at work and in any encounter I have with people in my personal life, I will do my best to be a positive contribution and not bother to go out of my way to help people. We should all do that, but sometimes I get so caught up in my own things that I forget all the stuff I could do for others, even without too much effort sometimes. We are nothing without each other so we really must treat each other as best as we can.

Now my break at work is nearly over and I better get back.

I would love to hear some of your goals for July, I do need the inspiration.

Have a great day!

– Camilla

 

June Come and Gone

As we are in the last few hours of this day, we are leaving June behind and welcoming July. It is so strange to think that the first summer month is already over. Time really goes by so quickly, it feels as if we just started the year and here we are, already half way through it! Where does the time go? I guess it is a good sign though, it is said that time flies by when we have fun, so I am thinking that I must have a lot of fun. Or perhaps I am just too busy. I would say that it is probably a bit of both.

Now that June has come and gone I want to take the last hours of it to reflect back on the month and how it has been for me. I always enjoy reading these summaries on other blogs, so now I will make one here, of my own highlights of the month.

Best thing about this month: 
The best thing about June for me must have been that I have finally started (although slowly) to get in a healthy routine of exercise and eating. I have cut down a lot on sugar and started running in the park on my days of from work. On the days I have work I have walked at least one way to or from which is about two hours.
I can defiantly tell the difference just by having started, maybe not so much in the mirror, but I feel much happier and I have much more energy than before. I dont feel sick as much and in general I just feel much better than in the months before.

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Worst thing that happened this month:
The real downer about this month for me personally was the result of the EU referendum. I have written a post about this a few days ago. Of course we dont know what exactly what will happen in the time coming with this, and what the future will look like, but for me who is here as a Norwegian it has caused a bit of stress and worrying about my future and it has of course been on my mind a lot since Friday.

Surprise of the month:
I PASSED MY EXAMS!!!! You really should have seen my face when I found out I had passed. As a serious student I probably should not reveal that it came as a surprise but I had in planted in my head that I would fail and had prepared myself for re-sits for about a month when I found out, phhhht thank god!

Book of the month:
“The Blue Between Sky and Water”
This book made my week a little while ago and really got me excited for adventure and wishing to be able to make a difference. It is written by Susan Abulhawa, the autor of “Mornings in Jenin”. I will write a review on it with more detail soon, but if you are looking for a good book to read, buy this one!

With work and no social life this month that was all of my summary. But although it has not been a month with much to say, it has been a great month, spent between work and with my wonderful man. I could not ask for much more.

Now it is time to look forward and make the most out of July. I hope everyone has had a wonderful June and wishing you all the best for July.

– Camilla

 

Deportation??

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As most of you probably know, yesterday Britain voted to leave the EU. I was just about to start my shift at work when I saw it on the BBC and it was pretty much what dominated all the conversions that day, both with the staff and residents.

Some were happy whilst others very sad and disappointed, and I think we were all very surprised when the prime minister David Cameron announced that he would resign. What is for sure is that it was a historic day.

I am not a big fan of writing about politics here on my blog, but because this event could potentially affect me directly I must say I was very disappointed and throughout the day started worrying about my own future. Since the UK is in the EU and Norway is a part of the EEA, I have been very spoiled since coming here. I dont have to worry about visas or my right to work or study, simply because it has already been fixed for me. I have not needed a visa or work permit, and I am realizing now how much I have taken that for granted. It probably sounds weird and even arrogant, but I have not really even considered myself a foreigner in London and over the years London has started to feel like my home. Yesterday it suddenly dawned upon me that I am actually a foreigner. The thought that I might one day have to leave here without wanting to has never really occurred to me until yesterday. This is not just the situation for me, but for thousands of people from all over the EU living in the UK. And of course I realize that there is many more from all over the world living in places they consider home but have an uncertain future and have to live in that limbo. I am here writing about the EU referendum because it is what has been on my mind the last two days.

As I woke up this morning I had gotten a little bit more used to the thought of these changes and started to relax a little bit. After all nothing is happening yet, and we do not know yet what the deal will be in the end as the UK is exiting the EU so until then I will go on with my life as usual and cross that bridge when I come to it. At least I will try to, after all I am a nervous Nellie who has not yet learned how to relax and stop worrying over anything unsettled.

Both Greg and I had a day of today, the first in a long time. Because he works Monday to Friday and I work 12 hours shifts that often land on a weekend it has been weeks since we had a day together just the two of us. Unfortunately it was raining and thundering most of the day but we decided to make the most of it.

We went out for lunch and had some amazing cheese burgers at a place in Westfield, Stratford called The Shake Shack. After having a very healthy week it was absolutely amazing to have a “cheat day” and eat some good old cheeseburgers and fries.

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After our lunch it was pouring down rain so we decided to take the tube around to some places we dont know to well to see if it is somewhere we might look for a place to rent. We are about to start house hunting for our own place to live. We currently live in one room in a house, were we have been living since February and now it is about time we get a place of our own. Better get it now before they deport me. Oof no hopefully not.

Well, now I am of to go wake up Greg from his nap, put out some sweets and enjoy the rest of my day of with my amazing man before work starts again tomorrow.

I hope you all have a great Saturday night, and we will talk again tomorrow.

– Camilla

Good morning from East London

Good morning beautiful people!

We are officially in summer and I am so happy about it.
For me that means that all exams are done and a full time student life is replaced with a full time work life for the next few months -hopefully with a little holiday at the end!

I have to say I do like studying full time more than I like working full time, but what I do like about the holidays is that I only have one thing to worry about.
During term time there are so many different assignments and readings to be done in our free time, and whilst working part time on the side of uni there can be many things to focus on. At least now I know I have work and that’s it.

I have decided to take advantage of that, and I have spent June trying to get in shape and eat better, and I am feeling so great! I am happier, have much more energy this month and I feel much better about my self. The visual results has yet to come, but that I feel healthier is for sure. In the end that is what really matters isn’t it?

Greg and I are in bed now, enjoying our morning coffee before he heads of to work and I go for a run.
I am anxiously awaiting to see if I passed my exams as the results come out today or tomorrow. Wish me luck!

Have a great day everyone!

– Camilla

When nothing feels right

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To be honest, the last month has not been going so well. More or less since we came back from our weekend in Stoke-On-Trent I have been feeling very down, both low energy and low mood.

I think the combination of exam stress, work stress and our living situation and the uncertainty around it all is a major factor to these feelings.

It is crunch time for my exams now, the first two are already on Monday and Tuesday, I should be more or less done with my revision by now, but yet I am not. Not even close. A few days of those set aside to prep for exams I haven’t even gotten out of the house nor been able to sit down and focus, and the days where I have sat down and worked for hour, I haven’t been able to focus at all, making the prep totally worthless.

Suddenly, I have found my self without will, motivation, energy nor focus.

I think also the uncertainty of what I will spend my summer doing and how much work I will have, at the same time as Greg and I living in a tiny room we rent, while waiting to move out to our own apartment is at times a stressfull situation. I think simply I got overwhelmed all of a sudden, and I have felt unable to take much action or reach for new things as a result of that.

The bad thing about getting in a mood like that, is that naturally whilst feeling down and overwhelmed, one often feel less like being among others and going out socializing and more like staying inside your own comfort zone and take it easy. Although that might feel good at the time, I find that the more time I spend by my self in a low mood, the less I feel like going out,and suddenly I have isolated myself, feeling even lower.

Currently I am spending my Saturday night at the uni library, desperately trying to redeem myself to manage a good grade. As I tried to focus more and more these thoughts came up about how the last month has been and how I just lost focus so completely. Perhaps a small depression hit me out of nowhere, or perhaps stress and anxiety around it all threw me for a bit. I am not sure the reason, but I am sure of one thing.

This is not how I will spend my summer, and if I can help it it wont deprive me of succeeding in my exams. I have not worked hard all year to have it taken away at the last moment.

Only I can pull myself out of this temporarily hole and I will. I hope that it is not too late for my exam prep but I will from now until my exams do the best I can for it not to be. I still have time and I will use it. That is all I can do right now, the rest I will start working on after Tuesday. Then I have some time to prepare a lot before the next exam, at the same time plan out my summer and work plans, get back in a healthy food and work out regime and spend some quality time with friends and boyfriend.

The next few months will be great, I have just decided that they will be!

This was just some thoughts I needed to get down on paper so I can again focus on the work I am here to do. Has anyone else experiences with these troubles?

Hopefully in a few days there will be a much happier girl writing here to you! Have a great Saturday evening!

– Camilla