A Holiday for Realization, Reflection and Inspiration

Now that our holiday in Crete is over, I have safely landed back home and a new routine has started. I have already been home for a few days, settled from my trip and even had my first days at Uni this new semester.

Our holiday has been great! A lot did not go as planned, but it was a holiday that I am so grateful for and that I needed.

The plan was to go on many trips, exercise, spend every day in the sun and soak up the Greek culture.
That is not really what happened. I spent a lot of the trip with what must have been the flu and only had a few hours a day on the beach, some I did not even make it to the beach. Often it was cold, and I did not make it to any excursions.
I had this whole plan to turn my blog into a well being/tour guide of Crete – well, obviously that did not happen.

But although it did not go according to plan, I am so happy I went, and I had such a great time! The holiday did not turn into an adventure of the island, or a cleansing trip for my body but it turned into a trip where I got a change to truly reflect on my life and How I live. A soul cleansing instead of a body cleansing!
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Not being able to go out every day and often getting tired quickly at night, I spent a lot of nights sitting drinking tea on the veranda alone with my thoughts. Sitting outside, listening to the sound of the ocean is so cliche, but it is true that it does wonders for your mind. Sitting in those beautiful surroundings and still missing home and being excited to come home is a true blessing. One that I often take for granted.
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I started thinking a lot of how I live my life, how I think, how my attitude is and how lucky I am with so many things in my life.

The truth is that my thinking can very often be negative, and especially lately I have been easily stressed, agitated and just had a bad energy.
It happens in life, we get so busy and caught up in all our responsibilities to reflect on how we think. If it then is something stressful or difficult we deal with often we can get in a bit of a funk.

I started watching these youtubers videos about positive thinking, and it hit me how right they are, and how much I have to learn from this.
The last few years I have been negative. I have let little things ruin my day, and put me down. I often expect the worst. I have felt tired and become to comfortable sitting inside.

I started thinking about why I do this, because it is really so silly!
I realized that I am simply afraid of being disappointed, therefor I have never got my hopes up about things I really want, and just believed that I wont get them. But by doing that, I have also not tried to go for what I really want. Winther it be a job, a friendship or just small things.

The same goes for how I talk about myself or the things I do. For instance if I am doing something well and someone tries to compliment me for it or show an interest, I always drag out the negatives. Not to complain, but to make sure I wont disappoint. I am so scared of that I might fail, so I dont tell people the goods. I always think that this could get away from me so quickly so I better not give anyone the impression that it is going super well, how will I then look if I fail?
And by doing so, I talk so much negative about my self that I am putting that negative energy out there and then of course start to doubt my self. Not to mention that I start focusing about these negative things.

Most importantly, I started thinking about those around me, those who my negativity impacts. For instance Greg, who always try to build me up, always is positive and tries to get me to do so many fun things with him. I feel bad that although I am not negative about him, having a girlfriend who had been looking at the negatives, questioning herself and often does not want to do much at all, it must be so hard!
Because although I want to do so many things in theory, when it comes down to it I often have had an excuse. Especially the last few months. Such as I am tried, I need time, I dont look good. And always the same thinking – tomorrow I will feel better, look better -have more time.

The things is that I want the best for those in my life, and I want to give them joy. Too often I feel that I want to please everyone, but I end up disappointing everyone.
I want Greg to be happy, and have a fun girlfriend. I want to be a good friend, a good aunt and a good daughter.

I always put happiness in the future and believe if I just reach this goal or that goal, then I can start to relax and be truly happy. I just need to loose some weight, I just need to get a hair cut, I just need to settle in at work, I just need my skin better. Always something.

I want better relationships, but often I shy away from social encounters. Especially with those I really like being with. It is like I have a fear that if they spend too much time with me, they might be disappointed. And it is so silly! Those who are meant to be in your life will want to hang out with you, but I have not given many people the chance, because I worry to much about myself.
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The most silly thing of all is that I am actually a very positive person. Just lately I have forgot.

But now I feel that I have had some time away, and made some hard realizations about my self. Dont get me wrong, it is not like I think I am a bad person, it is just this energy I have had lately, the energy I did not even think about.

But now that I have, I am all ready to start positive thinking! In fact, I have already started.

I have quit thinking that everything will be great tomorrow, just not today. Why not today? Happiness and positivism is not tomorrow, it is now – in this moment!

  • I wont think that I will not tell people or think about what I am so happy about right now. It might go away tomorrow, but I trust that it wont and if it does go away my being negative wont stop that. Why would I take away the joy of it today just because of the fear of tomorrow?
  • I am starting to say yes to things, as long as I dont have a gut feeling it is wrong for me. But try new things, enjoy what I am doing.
  • I am realizing that whatever is going to happen to me, nothing will happen that I cant handle. And whatever happens will happen for a reason, what matters is how I deal with it.
  • I am focusing on the good, not the bad. I dont put myself down, I focus on my good sides and I believe in myself.
  • I think everyday of what I am happy about

I must say, ever since I came home and has been conscious of my own thinking, I have been feeling really happy. It is the perfect time for it too, a new year is starting at Uni, I have missed home enough to truly appreciate it, and I am more ready than ever to tackle this third year of uni.

I truly believe that we often get what we need, not what we planned for and I am so happy that the holiday did not go according to plan. This was just what I needed!
I feel so inspired and excited!
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I am so excited to share with you how this will go, and to be open to new things and see things in a new and brighter light.
I am excited, because I feel that I have my old self back and now that I realized I had lost myself a little, getting back to my old self is so much easier.

Now I will go to get some sleep, tomorrow is a new day, that for me will be spent studying so I need my sleep!

Goodnight to you all, sweet dreams,
– Camilla

Last Nights Outfit

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We are in full packing mode here in Crete. Tomorrow evening we get picked up for the airport and yet another wonderful holiday is over.

I wanted to make a post about my outfit last night. A little because I finally got dressed up to go out and a little because I love this outfit and I got it so cheap!

The dress is from Primark. I bought it in June for only £14! I was so happy with it I had to have it.
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I love it because you can use it as a dress with heals when going out, to a party or to dinner but it can also be used if you feel like dressing up a bit more in the everyday. Get some more everyday shoes, some black tights and a jacket and you are set to go!

The jacket it just a normal black blazer from H&M and I bought it a couple of years ago.
Even though it looks like most other blazers I love it because it fits my body.
Because I am quite petite it is SO hard to find a blazer jacket that looks good and not boxy on me. So when I finally found this I was thrilled!
I think I payed £20 for it if I remember correctly.

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The shoes are from ASDA and I got them for £12 less than a month ago.
I really like them because they are really comfortable, so I can use them all nights and also put them on for work if I feel like it.

I really love shopping in London for the fact that you can get nice clothes for very cheap if you just take some time to look for it.
Even if I have a month that I am really poor and have an event, I can go out and get an outfit for it if I need to.

So there you have it – a complete outfit for less than £50!

– Camilla

 

Dinnertime in Greece

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Good evening from Agia Marina.
We are now on our last few days down here by the Mediterranean. Our time has flown by and on Saturday we fly home.

After a long day at the beach today, we got showered, dressed and went out to a very cozy Greek restaurant just down the street from us.

I think this is the first holiday we have been on where I have not felt the need to get super dressed up and go to a restaurant every night. Some nights I have even had just take away and many nights I have gone out wearing just jeans, a top and flats. Most nights I haven’t worried to much with make up or even my hair, just gone out to relax and eat.

Tonight though we spent some time getting dolled up and put on some nice dresses. We had such a good time deciding what to wear, how to do our hair and take pictures.

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My mum trying to get me to taste a danish snap called “Gammel Dansk”. I know from previous experience how hard it is to get down but my mum swears it is the best way to keep the flu away on holiday!

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I have always liked to get properly dressed on holiday, in fact sometimes I have felt it is y favorite thing about going away. I have always liked to go out after dinner and I am always the last person to want to leave.
This year I am very content after dinner most nights and quite happy to go home.
I dont know if it is just that I have been tired, that I am changing or perhaps I am just getting old.

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Tonight after dinner we tried to find a place with a bit of music and a few drinks, but we were unsure where to find it and looking around Agia Marina where we live there has nothing so we decided to go home.
I would have thought to be disappointed not to find anywhere, but to tell you the truth it was really nice to get home and change out of my dress.
I just hope I have not turned permanently into a really boring person!
Having said that though, it is a nice feeling to feel content by relaxing as well and not always having to go out to have a good time.

Anyways, I hope everyone has had a great day. I will update you more on our holiday tomorrow 🙂

For now it is time for this grandma to get to bed.

– Camilla

Back on The Beach

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Today I woke up feeling great – finally! It was such a great feeling, feeling like my self again!

It was such a good day, the weather was great, I was feeling great and the beach was great!

After having spent most time indoors the last few days and minimum time at the beach it was amazing to have a day just laying in the sun.
We had our lunch at the beach and after I went on a little walk by the sea before just relaxing in the sun.dscf1662dscf1659dscf1653dscf1663dscf1669

I am craving taking the bus to one of the more quite beaches on the Island, I have heard there are some absolutely gorgeous white sanded beaches  further east and I hope to be able to convince my mum to come with me and take the bus to one of these places.

I really like the beach here in Agia Marina, and today I was thrilled that I was finally feeling fine to spend the day there. The only thing is that the beach is packed with tourists, and although it is very nice and convenient especially with so many places to grab a bite to eat or a cold drink, I also think it is nice to get away a bit on holiday to very peaceful places.

My mum and I are completely different when it comes to this. I love going to places with minimum of tourists, even very quiet places, such as villages with a small population. Where there is no stress or rush, just peaceful and quiet.
To my mum a good holiday is a place that is built for tourism, where she can meet both locals and other Norwegian people and where there is food and music places on every corner, and a lot of tourists and people.
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It is quite funny how we are so different, but each to their own.
I really like being here though, and if we do a few outings it is the perfect balance of both our wishes.

Anyways, we had a fantastic day today and I hope I got a bit more of a tan.
I even went for a full run after the beach and it felt wonderful.
Now I am about to get in the shower and get ready to go to dinner.

 

– Camilla

 

Make Over

What a day it has been!

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After finishing my blog post this morning I decided to go for a long run and try to get better to enjoy the rest of the day.
After about five minutes I was so sick and achy, I just had to stop and go straight home and go to bed.
I basically missed the whole day, which was one of the best of our holiday, but I was to sick. I only moved once during the day to sit on the sofa for a bit, but even then I only sat for a bit before going back to bed.

I stayed in bed until almost 9 pm, when I started to feel better. Still then both me and my mum felt to unwell to go out, so we got lamb take away and ate dinner inside today.

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I am so happy that I am feeling better though! Now the only problem is that I am far to awake to fall asleep. It is nearly 3 am and I am still wide awake. I think that I a good sign for tomorrow so I am not overly bothered. I just hope I wont have to spend tomorrow over tired when I am finally felling well!

I have used the time sitting here to give my blog a whole new look! I thought the old look was very dark and boring and not very clean at all.
I spent hours today looking through themes and customizing it, changing my mind about 8 times and starting again. But eventually I found a look I was happy with, and I hope I will stay pleased with it. And that you will like it too!

I hope you will find this look more clean and easier to navigate and read, basically that it is easy on the eye.

It was a great distraction when I could not do much else without feeling ill and at the same time feeling restless and bored.

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Now I have watched about every episode of the real housewives and have moved on to the real housewives of Melbourne.
I hopefully will start getting tires after a few more episodes, this show is so addictive that it might keep me up even longer than I need!

Have a great night!

– Camilla

Chania at Sunset

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Good Morning!

Today we have woken up to a warm day with a clear blue sky. It is the first day were it is not a bit nippy outside in a dress at 8 am. Sunny days!

Unfortunately I did not wake up in harmony with the weather, but with a sore throat, deep cough and aches absolutely e-v-e-r-y-w-h-e-r-e.
Just as I was super excited about beating my cold so fast, it turned around and knocked me out like ever before last night. I am pretty sure I jinxed it by saying how quickly it passed. I probably made sure I would come back in full gear by last night announcing that I knew I would wake up well and fresh this morning.
But oh well, today is such a lovely day and there is no way this cold is going to ruin that.

Last night my mum and I took the bus into Chania around 6 and spent the evening at the harbor there. We had been wanting to go in ever since we came, and yesterday we thought that if we dont do it now, we might leave it too late.

It was the first night of the holiday that I properly dresses up in a dress, and I was so excited to wear my blue dress that I never get a chance to wear at home.
It was a place worth dressing up for. It is such a beautiful place, with a wonderful atmosphere and I was happy that I had put in a bit extra effort this evening.

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All the streets around the harbor where small, cozy streets full of little shops and beautiful architecture. It was full of people out to see the sights and get some shopping done and full of life!

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Leading up to the harbor there is so many small Greek restaurants and coffee shops, and people out to enjoy themselves.
The buildings and stunning, and what makes it extra nice is all the artists setting up there, some sing lovely Greek songs, others paint or play an instrument.

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We went for dinner at a restaurant at the harbor itself, and got there just as it was starting to get dark and could see the sunset from there.

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It was perfect in every way, except for the fact that we both didn’t think to bring jackets.
We thought it was so warm when we left that we just did not need it. Of course it was clear day and sunny when we left, somehow I think we forgot that it does get dark at night – the sun actually goes away and it gets a little colder.
Having forgotten about that – and sitting right by the sea where it is windy, we got a little cold during dinner.
It didn’t help that I was coughing and starting to feel sick again and so did my mum. So after dinner we didn’t stay for as long as we would have wanted, but decided to go home and get warm.

But nevertheless, we had a wonderful evening in Chania, and I am so happy that we went. Even sitting freezing and slightly sick it was well worth it!

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Back at the hotel I was very happy to change out of my dress and getting some warm clothes on, before going to a place near us for coffee.

I do hope we get time to go to Chania once more on our holiday, more prepared this time. It really is beautiful, and I would love to get some more pictures!

Now I am sitting contemplating wither to go for a run, or just straight down to the pharmacy for some c vitamins and what else they got.

I will update more later today.
Have a great day!

– Camilla

 

 

First days in Crete, Greece

Hello from Crete, Greece!
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After a long journey, first to Norway and then from Norway to Crete, we are finally here!

We have been here for five days already, but because we haven’t had internet I have been offline. But now I have finally sorted it out.

It is so beautiful here.
From our room we can see the Mediterranean and the sound of the waves is amazing to sit and listen to.

So far on our holiday we have been taking it slow. I am jet to get a good tan or go to any of the sites I want to see, but I think this last week that will all be done.

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We have had some days of sun and some with rain and wind, and unfortunately, most of the sunny days I have had a big cold and had to go up from the beach early.
I have a slight sunburn on my shoulders and face, and the rest of me is as pale as it was before we left. However, now it seems my cold is gone (silly us put the air condition of full the first days and of course both of us got ill) and I am expecting the next week to be great! Not to mention that my neck and back is finally better after weeks of pain, and it is such a relief!

Today I have planned a long run in the morning, and after breakfast spend most of the day at the beach. I am in dire need to work on my tan, I look like a ghost compared to everyone else here.

Over the next few days I hope to get myself on some excursions to see some of the historical sight on this beautiful Island, but first I plan to get a little tan, otherwise I will stand out like a sore thumb in all the pictures!

That is my quick update from out holiday so far, not a lot to tell so far, but it is coming!

I hope everyone is having a great week, on holiday or at home!

– Camilla