I have had the worst night leading up to today. I was a little short of breath yesterday and just after I went to bed last night it got really bad and I felt really dizzy and very short of breath.
I couldn’t sleep and laying down I felt even worse, so I got up and just sat up in the sofa relaxing.
I thought it could be that I was slight dehydrated so I made sure to get a few bottles of water to drink from which helped a little.
I have so many things going on at the moment and my head is in so many different places right now. I am not fond of change either and with the end of my degree at Uni coming to an end and a new routine about to start when the exams are done is stressing me out. I am not sure why, because I know there is a good chance that much better things are coming after Uni. I am actually excited to see what will happen after Uni and I feel excited by all the opportunities, both with the possibility of going into working and starting my career or doing a post grad. The opportunities are endless and I love it, but at the same time the thought of the unknown is making me feel stresses. Perhaps it is the possibility of failure or something bad happening, I don’t know.
I also know that so much of my future depends on me doing well at Uni for the next few months and also to seek out opportunities outside of Uni now, such as internships, or a job I could enjoy that would be towards what I want to work with in the future. Basically I feel the pressure to stay on top of things much more this semester.
I don’t know if me feeling unwell stems from a bug or just being under the weather, or if it is my subconscious freaking out a little. I am still feeling a little unwell and I think I will take the morning today to relax and recover, and hopefully feel better. I hope I will feel better during the day, so I can get back to work and hopefully relieve some of the pressure or at least not add to it by being taken out of action for some time.
In the early mornings today I started watching an old season of “Keeping up with the Kardashians” and made myself a few cups of tea. It helped a little, I am still feeling a little out of breath and shaky but better than last night. If nothing else, zoning out to a show and enjoying a cup of hot beverage does take your mind of feeling ill.
I wish you all a great day, and hopefully I will be feeling better and have something more fun to report next time!
Its a new week and a fresh start! Time for new goals and a clean slate!
Everyone always talk about how they hate Mondays, but I actually quite like them. It feels like a new start, just as the beginning of the year feels like.
I also often work long hours on the weekend and at the end of the week since I am a student on week days so that might be a part of my love for Mondays. Uni life feels more relaxed than working hours, even though the uni work load is much more. It is probably because the hours you study is more flexible to manage that hours that you are at work.
Since it is Monday today and a new week is commencing, I have set myself 5 simple goals for the week:
Go for a Run and exercise minimum 4 times
Eat healthy the entire week, and only have chocolate or candy 1 day in the week
Spend minimum 35 hours on uni work this week
Answer messages as soon as they come and keep in touch with friends
This Monday has been a great start to the week. I have been for a lecture at uni that was really interesting, cleared up at home a little bit and made Greg and I tacos for dinner.
Here are a few pictures from my day today so far;
I will take the rest of the evening off now, and watch some Big Bang Theory or Silent Witness on the TV when Greg finishes his play station game.
Now that a new year has come and 2016 is officially history, I thought it would be nice to have a look back at the year that just passed and reflect on that.
Last year was a year of many changes and for me and Greg it was the year that we worked on settling in to our life in London. It feels like we spent the whole year getting settled and set up a new life, a new home and a new routine. Here is a throwback to the year 2016.
On this day exactly one year ago the day we had been waiting for arrived. Greg moved to London.
I remember the trip to Heathrow airport so vividly as went to pick him up. I had not seen him since September and I was stoked! I was both nervous and incredibly happy. I was nervous about the big step of moving in together and having our relationship go from long distance to one where we not only would see each other every day but also living together and sharing our lives. Would we meet differences that would be to hard to live with? Would we see sides of each other that we were not prepared for? I was also very excited to be living with the person I love and sharing my life with my best friend. To after missing each other for so long to finally be able to wake up together every morning and go to bed together every night.
When Greg finally stepped out to the arrival hall at Heathrow airport, all my nervousness disappeared and I remembered just how good it felt to be with him. I had almost forgot how handsome he was and how much he made me laugh.
Finally we were together again.
Greg didn’t stay for many days before we went on a two week holiday to Norway. At that time Norway was covered in snow and the temperature went as low as 17 degrees. I can imagine it was quite a shock to Greg, coming from sunny New Zealand. We spent time with my family, took a trip to Oslo and just fully enjoyed ourselves.
Coming back to London we started looking for a place. As Greg didn’t have a job yet, getting a place by our selves was difficult and therefore we ended up renting a room in Stratford through Air Bnb. We moved into a family house with a family of three that rented our their spare room. Our plan was to live there for one or two months, ended up being until July.
At first we were just fine there, but over time being two people sharing one room where we would sleep, hang out, eat and spend all our time on the bed it grew less charming.
Greg got a job impressively fast and had his first day only a few weeks after we returned and is in this job today, working as a paralegal.
I continued with Uni and worked part time as a Health Care Assistant at a local Dementia Home.
In July we finally got our own place. I cannot even begin to express my relief! I felt like someone that just won the lottery must feel. All that space and privacy after months of living in a small confined space was an incredible feeling. I think it took me about two weeks before I finally could relax and believe that this was actually our new home!
When we moved in we spent most of our savings on the deposit and therefore had little left over for furniture. Our place looked empty for months, only filled with basic second hand furniture of what we needed the most. I must say however, I still loved it!
During the summer I went from working as a Heath Care Assistant at my job to covering for the Home Administrator for two months, suddenly working office hours Monday – Friday, shorter shifts but more days a week than normal. It was a lot of fun and gave me an sight of what it is like having a normal 9 – 5 job.
When my time in the office was over, I went for two weeks to Greece with my mum for a holiday before returning to London to start the 3rd year of Uni.
I felt that over the summer I had gathered new motivations for Uni and was excited to start and continue to learn. After the summer holiday I have enjoyed Uni more than ever before so I think the summer gave me just the motivation and excitement I needed.
I honestly dont even know what we have been up to from October to December. The time has just flown by whilst we have been busy planning for Christmas holidays and doing work and Uni.
I did however finally get to decorate the living room how I wanted in December and I am to this day still so excited for it. Finally it looks like a home!
Finally, as you know we flew home to Norway on the 23rd of December and spent the holidays here. I am still here and Greg flew home today where I will join him on the 5th.
I mentioned it earlier in a post, but during this Christmas holiday I feel as we have fallen in love all over again and got a better connection than ever before. Living hectic lives in London and feeling tired and stressed when we get home can make you disconnect and take each other a little for granted. I think we both want to take this holiday with us home in a sense and make sure we make time for each other, disconnect from all the rest occasionally and just enjoy one another’s company from time to time.
Like said earlier, I feel that 2016 was the year of getting settled in and setting up our new life.
I hope 2017 will be the year of accomplishments and having fun with, work, uni and travelling!
Tomorrow I am posting about my hopes for 2017!
All that is left for me to do now is say thank you for a very interesting and good year!
Boy, has this week been busy! I realize I keep writing about hectic days over and over, but this week has been over the top!
In between exams, presentations and re decorating I have barely had time to sleep. This weekend should have been spent either getting some rest before next week starting up again, or starting on my assignments that are due next week but no, I am working 12 hours Saturday and Sunday. At least I am being productive right?
On Wednesday I had a 20 minutes presentation for my feminism module and on Thursday I had an exam for another module. Because the beginning of the week I was putting furniture together – something that took way longer than I anticipated I was suddenly a bit behind on my presentation, and ended up spending all night before fixing it up and adding to it.
By the day of the presentation I felt ready and walked in with mounts of confident. That was until we got into the room and got ready. And what happened – the stage fright! The dreaded stage fright! Suddenly it occurred to me what a sensitive and awkward topic my presentation was about, reproductive rights since the 1960s.
So there I was, on stage, visibly nervous with shaky voice, shaky voice and occasionally little black outs as to what I was saying.
I walked out of there feeling humiliated and stupid but with no time to wallow, I had an exam the next day.
Because my presentation went worse than I thought it would, I was determined to make sure I knocked the exam out of the park.
I already felt prepared, but I had to make absolutely sure. So I went home, slept for 4 hours, and stayed up all night and morning before it, reading and preparing.
I took all the exams I could find from previous years something that made me feel completely confident I would ace it, I knew it all! Or at least that’s what I thought.
Taking the exam, the questions were different that what I had prepared for, and in addition I again got a bit of a black out and could not get my timeline in order. I still dont know exactly how it went, but I have a bad feeling about it. I was kicking myself the whole way home. especially because I felt so confident going in and had such high hopes and standards for it.
Oh well, I have two assignments due next week, and with a little luck and a lot hard work I can make up for this weeks disappointments.
So, another week spent reading and working ahead, if they go well, I will still be enjoying my Christmas holiday.
Today however, it is time to change focus, from politics and academia to healthcare and caring for residents for the next two days.
As you are reading this I will be at work, hopefully being more successful than what I have been previous in this week!
Have a great weekend everybody! Enjoy yourselves whatever you are up to.
This has been an unsocial weekend for me, with Greg away and me being swamped with upcoming deadlines and exams at Uni. I wish I could say that I have got a great start to it this weekend, but my concentration has not been great, so much work to be done tonight and the upcoming days!
However, I am so excited for tomorrow because our new furniture is finally arriving! Like I said in the previous post, I was at IKEA on Friday to get some decorative stuff to add the final touches to it but they are all still in the bags waiting to be brought out on Monday!
This is entirely my own project – I say that as if it is a highly important work project I know, but it is my own in the sense that Greg does not know what the result will be or know what any of the furniture is. I wanted to show him that I have great interior design skills and add a bit of a feminine touch to our home. In other words show him how great I can make this place. I want to wow him.
Now I am getting slightly worried that it will not look like what I have had in mind, that the colours will clash or that it just wont look right. Hopefully though, it will look very homely and beautiful. I want a place where we can truly relax and feel at home. A place to lower out shoulders, and give us peace in this very busy city we live in.
Before the “transformation” I want to show you the before pictures of how the place looks like now.
As for the rest of yesterday, after giving a million tries to study well, I took a little break to spend some time Greg when he came home. He has been gone with work so much this week, so it was so good to have him home for a while.
I made us some propper weekend food – Tacos, and afterwards we had cheesecake and cookies and watched a few episodes of Ellen. I LOVE that woman!
Here are some photos of our evening:
I hope you all have a great end to the week and wishing you a fantastic week to come!
These last few weeks has gone so quick! I cannot belive we are already in December, the last month of the year. Christmas is right around the corner and so is uni deadlines and exams.
It has been a hectic month for me so far. Trying to prepare for everything at uni as well as keeping up with the social calendar of December is tricky enough, but in addition this bad cold has been going around and of course I caught it!
Tonight Greg is in Bristol with work and I have so many deadlines coming up so I have had to stay inn and working on them. Hooray for Friday night! No, all jokes aside – it could be age – or delusion but I am really enjoying spending some time indoors tonight, with Pizza, Pepsi Max and snacks. And even when it is spent working on my assignments. I must be growing up haha!
Lately I have become so bored and annoyed at our living room furnishing. Something that is ironic since i am actually the one who furnished in the first place. Suddenly I realized that our place really lack that “homey” feeling and really is quite disastrous colour coordinated. Somehow as I was decorating it, I made it dark and look like a place two bachelors would share rather than a nice cozy home.
So at the beginning at the month I planned for and ordered new furniture and they arrive already on Monday! I keep talking about it as my master project. I am so excited! Earlier today I went and got some decorations and final touches for the living room at IKEA, and I cannot wait to show you when it is all in place!
This was my little update for today! I am now about to watch an episode of Everybody Loves Raymond, before continuing with my uni work for a bit before bed.
I am getting ready to head out to work, but before I do that I thought I would give an update and a summary with the highs and lows from the week that just passed.
I have been away for some weeks now. We have had some highs and lows here that I have been working through. But it is all worked through now and I am back to normal, and hopefully will be better than ever!
In the week that was I have worked towards getting myself healthy and feel my best. After a few health scares and feeling unhealthy my focus has gone from heating and working out to look my best, so eating, living and working out in a way that benefits my health.
It is a work in progress and I have had good days and days that I have been less successful but I am getting there!
I hope that in this week I will not have any setbacks and be 100% dedicated to being healthy. I have realized that being happy and healthy is much more important than being thin, or have great skinn or being well toned and that way I feel more relaxed and much happier.
Well, back to the week that was.
High point of the week: On Thursday Greg took me out for a super nice date! We went to central and ate tapas before going for ice cream. It was great to get to spend some one on one time without any distractions. The food was amazing and the company was even better!
How lucky am I to be with this amazing man!
Low point of the week: The low point of my week must have been yesterday, when Greg and I was watching the Saints and the Broncos and just as we were getting super excited that they were about to win, the Broncos blocked the last field goal and we lost the game! We were so disappointed!
Surprise of the week: Trump won the election! Like so many else I am just stunned that Donald Trump won the election in America. I was up watching some of the election and I could not believe he was in the lead. I was even more surprised waking up to the news that he won! Who would have though a year ago that he would actually be president. It just goes to show that anything can happen, so at least that is a good life lesson.
I have in general had a great week, and been getting on track with food, sleep and in general feeling very uplifted and happy.
Having said that I could not get to sleep last night, and ended up with only 3 hours of sleep so I am dreading spending 12 hours as a health care assistant today. Being on such a long shift in a job were you need to be very present for the residents and the people you are looking after is very challenging when being sleep deprived.
However I am determined to keep up a good spirit and just keep in mind that at the end of the day I will get a great night sleep. And keep the coffee coming!