Terror in London

I never want to make my blog political and I try to stay away from writing about my opinions about current affairs. However living in London and writing my blog about my life in London, today it seems unnatural not to share my thoughts or at least mention the terror attack that happened at Westminster this afternoon.

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According to the BBC four people have been killed and at least 20 are wounded.

I had just come home today, when I turned on the TV and it said that there had been a terrorist attack by the Houses of Parliament. I first thought about Greg, because he works so  close to the site and my immediate thoughts was that he could have gone there for lunch. My worries for him were calmed fast though as I saw that it happened after he would have been due to be back at work after lunch long before this happened, so that he would have been at his office when this took place.

Looking at the TV today though filled me with sadness and made me start to wonder about life, the way that these things always make you do.

Wherever a terrorist attack happens it is a tragedy and horrible for the people involved, for those losing a loved one and for the people walking around feeling that fear of terror in their body and in their streets. All lives count the same and everyone treasures their lives and the loss of a life is the same for anyone, that is a given. Of course when an attack happens close to you however, and you feel that this could have happened to you, where you are or where you might have gone you think of it more. I feel that we all walk around thinking in the back of our minds that such a terrible incident could not happen to us or where we live regardless of if that is true or not. It is how we survive and go about our day. So of course when it does happen you get surprised and shocked.

I remember when the Terrorist Attacks happened in Paris on November 13th 2015. I worked in a bar at the time here in London and when I came home and saw the news I felt very touched by it personally. Much because it was in a big European capital like London and also because the shooters shot down many places similar to my own work. This gave the added feeling of identification with the victims because it felt as though they had  a very similar night to my own up until it happened and it gave me a feeling that it could have happened at my job during my night just like it could with them.
It is the same thought that makes me feel strong about the London attack today, the fact that you walk so many times on that exact spot it happened and the feeling that I could have just as easily been walking here today or someone I love could just as those unfortunate people today or this could have just as easily happened when I walked here not long ago.

I think that is some of the effects terror has on us, the feeling that we are not safe  where we are and that if it could happen to them, it could happen to us which is so unfortunate and a part of the desired effect.

Earlier I was thinking of how this morning I was stressed and worried about what is going on in my life and when things like this happens you realize how small and insignificant these things are. Those poor people who died today do not have worries to wake up to tomorrow and they had no idea this morning. Their loved ones would most likely have good and bad things on their minds with their morning coffee and now those things are all over shadowed by what happened today and the grief that comes with it.

I feel bad for people in our community that might experience more racism, bullying and exclusion after today as well. In my experience this is something that often happens, people lash out at innocent people who had nothing to do with the incident because of their own ignorance. I hope that that does not happen this time, and lets remember to be kind towards one another and please do not put responsibility where it doesn’t belong with innocent people who had nothing to do with this. We have to be nice and kind towards each other even after such a terrible and tragic event.

I feel so sad for the people that lost their lives today, for the brave policeman risking his life and dying for the safety of others and for everyone grieving. I will be praying for them all and that we will all just start being nice to one another and stop hurting each other.

– Camilla

Sick or Worried?

Good morning guys!

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I have had the worst night leading up to today. I was a little short of breath yesterday and just after I went to bed last night it got really bad and I felt really dizzy and very short of breath.
I couldn’t sleep and laying down I felt even worse, so I got up and just sat up in the sofa relaxing.

I thought it could be that I was slight dehydrated so I made sure to get a few bottles of water to drink from which helped a little.

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I have so many things going on at the moment and my head is in so many different places right now. I am not fond of change either and with the end of my degree at Uni coming to an end and a new routine about to start when the exams are done is stressing me out. I am not sure why, because I know there is a good chance that much better things are coming after Uni. I am actually excited to see what will happen after Uni and I feel excited by all the opportunities, both with the possibility of going into working and starting my career or doing a post grad. The opportunities are endless and I love it, but at the same time the thought of the unknown is making me feel stresses. Perhaps it is the possibility of failure or something bad happening, I don’t know.

I also know that so much of my future depends on me doing well at Uni for the next few months and also to seek out opportunities outside of Uni now, such as internships, or a job I could enjoy that would be towards what I want to work with in the future. Basically I feel the pressure to stay on top of things much more this semester.

I don’t know if me feeling unwell stems from a bug or just being under the weather, or if it is my subconscious freaking out a little. I am still feeling a little unwell and I think I will take the morning today to relax and recover, and hopefully feel better. I hope I will feel better during the day, so I can get back to work and hopefully relieve some of the pressure or at least not add to it by being taken out of action for some time.

In the early mornings today I started watching an old season of “Keeping up with the Kardashians” and made myself a few cups of tea. It helped a little, I am still feeling a little out of breath and shaky but better than last night. If nothing else, zoning out to a show and enjoying a cup of hot beverage does take your mind of feeling ill.

I wish you all a great day, and hopefully I will be feeling better and have something more fun to report next time!

– Camilla

Goals for the week

Its  a new week and a fresh start! Time for new goals and a clean slate!

Everyone always talk about how they hate Mondays, but I actually quite like them. It feels like a new start, just as the beginning of the year feels like.

I also often work long hours on the weekend and at the end of the week since I am a student on week days so that might be a part of my love for Mondays. Uni life feels more relaxed than working hours, even though the uni work load is much more. It  is probably because the hours you study is more flexible to manage that hours that you are at work.

Since it is Monday today and a new week is commencing, I have set myself 5 simple goals for the week:

  1. Go for a Run and exercise minimum 4 times
  2. Eat healthy the entire week, and only have chocolate or candy 1 day in the week
  3. Spend minimum 35 hours on uni work this week
  4. Answer messages as soon as they come and keep in touch with friends
  5. Stay positive

  This Monday has been a great start to the week. I have been for a lecture at uni that was really interesting, cleared up at home a little bit and made Greg and I tacos for dinner.
Here are a few pictures from my day today so far;

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I will take the rest of the evening off now, and watch some Big Bang Theory or Silent Witness on the TV when Greg finishes his play station game.

What goals have you guys made for the week?

 

– Camilla

New Job!

Good morning guys!

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This morning I have been for  a run, done some exercises and now I am enjoying my breakfast whilst watching the Kardashians and gathering the energy for a productive day. Wohoo!

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I have fallen slightly behind on my uni work the last few weeks, so I have some major catch up to do over the next few days.

A week ago I got an extra job as a waitress! As the summer is sneaking up on us slowly but surely I felt that I needed some extra money for holidays and etc, not to mention that uni is soon over and I dont know yet if I will be able to go for my masters after the summer or how long it will take me to get a full time job if I dont go on studying straight away.

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I really like my new job and the people there, much more than I thought I would actually, however I have to be very disciplined with getting my work done for uni now that I am working more  hours than  am used to and the last few days has been a bit of a slip. But that all changes today!
I am getting super stressed that we are already in March, both in terms of all the work I have leading up for the end of the term, but also that three years of uni is coming to an end. I defiantly feel that I am not done studying and the unknown about what I will be doing after the summer is quite stressfull. Time is just going to fast and I almost feel that life is passing me by! That might be a bit of a stretch but you get what I mean. Therefore I feel that it is super important that I make the most out of the next two months to stay on top of everything.

I got next to no sleep last night, so that will be a challenge when I am trying to read and learn today, but with a few cups of coffee and some good old will power I think I will be alright.
Luckily I got of to a good start with my work out and a good energetic breakfast. I also have a few errands to run today, such as getting a haircut for my poor neglected hair!

What are you guys up to today?

I wish you all a good and productive day!

– Camilla

 

Cleaning Out my Closet, Cleaning Up my Life

Good morning!

Monday is here and I am hoping it is the start of a great and productive week!

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Last night I started planning for the week, and as I did that I also cleaned up at home!
One of the things that was long overdue was my closet. I am somewhat of a horder, especially with clothes. I can never seem to be able to let anything go, and with too many clothes for my closet it is a constant mess! Half the clothes I owe are stuff I never wear, even wrong sized clothes I hang on to in the fear that I might one day not have anything to wear and need some emergency clothing.

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It is actually working against it’s purpose with me always being in a rush in the morning combined with a chaotic closet always leads to me not finding anything to wear and end up dressing like a klutz.
Not to mention our bedroom always being in a state of chaos.
So I decided to put an end to all that and finally go through it. I filled up an entire bin bag to give away!

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Much better!

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Finally – A closet where I can actually find my clothes!

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I am hoping and planning for the closet change to be the metaphorical start to a much better week than the one that passed. A boarder separating last week to the coming week.

The week that passed was such a mess with to many unfortunate incidents and me failing to meet any of my goals.

Last week started well with many outings and fun. I ate healthy, worked out and spent my days with productivity.

Well, as the storm came to London it blew away my motivation and whisked me with bad luck.

I let my diet go, ate loads of sugars and cut back on nutrient food, leaving me feeling bloated, out of energy and unwell. I “forgot” my exercise and I overslept nearly every night, making it hard to fall asleep in the evening and then I was caught in this really bad sleep routine. Fortunately I didn’t have anywhere I needed to be early, but still –  bad.

To top my week of, on Friday I was out with one of my friends and I lost my phone! It was stolen out of my bag! Four years in London and my first theft incident so I guess I am lucky, but still so very annoying.
So yesterday I had to go get a cheap phone so people can reach me and now I am stuck with this really old phone that is super hard to use. But at least I have a phone and can be reached!

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What a week, fortunately that’s over! 

So, that was my week – a fiasco of a week, but fortunately that is over now and a new week is upon us!

I have already started well, I have been for a long run, did my exercises, had a shower and I am now doing my makeup. All ready for my 9 am appointment and a good start to the week!

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I wish you all a great Monday, and hope to report with good news throughout the week!

– Camilla

Perfect Private Valentine

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Hello from South London!
I hope everyone had a great valentines day yesterday with friends, partners of family.

We did not go out for valentines, but stayed home instead. We figured the restaurants would be fully booked and it seemed like more hassel than fun to get out in the crowd. I am someone who likes to celebrate as things happen and not on a later date. Both with Christmas, birthdays and valentines I always feel bad celebrating it before or after the actual date.

Greg ended up making a three course meal when he came home from work and it was excellent!
We have been watching the British show Dinner Date,  show where people go on blind dates and cooks each other a three course meal and then they rate one another.
Our valentines were heavily inspired by this show so we made valentines our own private Dinner Date. We are not exactly strangers but well well.
In between courses we snapped each other the “interviews” as they do on the show where they tell the audience how the date is going. It is killing me that I do not have Greg’s snaps because they were hilarious!

Anyway, here is some picture drizzles from our Dinner Date/ Valentines date;

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Getting Greg’s snaps from the kitchen!

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My valentines present a bathrobe!
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So comfy! 

That was our Valentines day! I hope you all had a great day or night!

– Camilla

2016 – From a Long Distance Relationship to Sharing a Home and a City

Now that a new year has come and 2016 is officially history, I thought it would be nice to have a look back at the year that just passed and reflect on that.

Last year was a year of many changes and for me and Greg it was the year that we worked on settling in to our life in London. It feels like we spent the whole year getting settled and set up a new life, a new home and a new routine. Here is a throwback to the year 2016.
On this day exactly one year ago the day we had been waiting for arrived. Greg moved to London.
I remember the trip to Heathrow airport so vividly as  went to pick him up. I had not seen him since September and I was stoked! I was both nervous and incredibly happy. I was nervous about the big step of moving in together and having our relationship go from long distance to one where we not only would see each other every day but also living together and sharing our lives. Would we meet differences that would be to hard to live with? Would we see sides of each other that we were not prepared for? I was also very excited to be living with the person I love and sharing my life with my best friend. To after missing each other for so long to finally be able to wake up together every morning and go to bed together every night.
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When Greg finally stepped out to the arrival hall at Heathrow airport, all my nervousness disappeared and I remembered just how good it felt to be with him. I had almost forgot how handsome he was and how much he made me laugh.
Finally we were together again.

Greg didn’t stay for many days before we went on a two week holiday to Norway. At that time Norway was covered in snow and the temperature went as low as 17 degrees. I can imagine it was quite a  shock to Greg, coming from sunny New Zealand. We spent time with my family, took a trip to Oslo and just fully enjoyed ourselves.

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Sightseeing in Oslo 

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Back at my mums house in Arendal

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At first we were just fine there, but over time being two people sharing one room where we would sleep, hang out, eat and spend all our time on the bed it grew less charming.

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Our new “home” a bedroom in Stratford

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Back in London – spending the weekends exploring the city!

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My handsome man outside the British Museum 

20160122_20472920160122_201734Greg got a job impressively fast and had his first day only a few weeks after we returned and is in this job today, working as a paralegal.

I continued with Uni and worked part time as a Health Care Assistant at a local Dementia Home.

In July we finally got our own place. I cannot even begin to express my relief! I felt like someone that just won the lottery must feel. All that space and privacy after months of living in a small confined space was an incredible feeling. I think it took me about two weeks before I finally could relax and believe that this was actually our new home!
When we moved in we spent most of our savings on the deposit and therefore had little left over for furniture. Our place looked empty for months, only filled with basic second hand furniture of what we needed the most. I must say however, I still loved it!
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Newly moved in!

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December – Finally furnished after living there for 6 months!

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During the summer I went from working as a Heath Care Assistant at my job to covering for the Home Administrator for two months, suddenly working office hours Monday – Friday, shorter shifts but more days a week than normal. It was a lot of fun and gave me an sight of what it is like having a normal 9 – 5 job.

When my time in the office was over, I went for two weeks to Greece with my mum for a holiday before returning to London to start the 3rd year of Uni.

I felt that over the summer I had gathered new motivations for Uni and was excited to start and continue to learn. After the summer holiday I have enjoyed Uni more than ever before so I think the summer gave me just the motivation and  excitement I needed.

I honestly dont even know what we have been up to from October to December. The time has just flown by whilst we have been busy planning for Christmas holidays and doing work and Uni.

I did however finally get to decorate the living room how I wanted in December and I am to this day still so excited for it. Finally it looks like a home!

Finally, as you know we flew home to Norway on the 23rd of December and spent the holidays here. I am still here and Greg flew home today where I will join him on the 5th.
I mentioned it earlier in a post, but during this Christmas holiday I feel as we have fallen in love all over again and got a better connection than ever before. Living hectic lives in London and feeling tired and stressed when we get home can make you disconnect and take each other a little for granted. I think we both want to take this holiday with us home in a sense and make sure we make time for each other, disconnect from all the rest occasionally and just enjoy one another’s company from time to time.
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Like said earlier, I feel that 2016 was the year of getting settled in and setting up our new life.

I hope 2017 will be the year of accomplishments and having fun with, work, uni and travelling!
Tomorrow I am posting about my hopes for 2017!

All that is left for me to do now is say thank you for a very interesting and good year!

–  Camilla