Presentations, Exams and Study, Study, Study

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My campus at sunset, Canary Wharf in the background

Boy, has this week been busy! I realize I keep writing about hectic days over and over, but this week has been over the top!

In between exams, presentations and re decorating I have barely had time to sleep. This weekend should have been spent either getting some rest before next week starting up again, or starting on my assignments that are due next week but no, I am working 12 hours Saturday and Sunday. At least I am being productive right?

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On Wednesday I had a 20 minutes presentation for my feminism module and on Thursday I had an exam for another module. Because the beginning of the week I was putting furniture together – something that took way longer than I anticipated I was suddenly a bit behind on my presentation, and ended up spending all night before fixing it up and adding to it.
By the day of the presentation I felt ready and walked in with mounts of confident. That was until we got into the room and got ready. And what happened – the stage fright! The dreaded stage fright! Suddenly it occurred to me what a sensitive and awkward topic my presentation was about, reproductive rights since the 1960s.

So there I was, on stage, visibly nervous with shaky voice, shaky voice and occasionally little black outs as to what I was saying.
I walked out of there feeling humiliated and stupid but with no time to wallow, I had an exam the next day.

Because my presentation went worse than I thought it would, I was determined to make sure I knocked the exam out of the park.
I already felt prepared, but I had to make absolutely sure. So I went home, slept for 4 hours, and stayed up all night and morning before it, reading and preparing.

img_20161216_192204I took all the exams I could find from previous years something that made me feel completely confident I would ace it, I knew it all! Or at least that’s what I thought.
Taking the exam, the questions were different that what I had prepared for, and in addition I again got a bit of a black out and could not get my timeline in order. I still dont know exactly how it went, but I have a bad feeling about it. I was kicking myself the whole way home. especially because I felt so confident going in and had such high hopes and standards for it.

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One exhausted girl Thursday night!

Oh well, I have two assignments due next week, and with a little luck and a lot hard work I can make up for this weeks disappointments.

So, another week spent reading and working ahead, if they go well, I will still be enjoying my  Christmas holiday.

Today however, it is time to change focus, from politics and academia to healthcare and caring for residents for the next two days.

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Of to work we go!

As you are reading this I will be at work, hopefully being more successful than what I have been previous in this week!

Have a great weekend everybody! Enjoy yourselves whatever you are up to.

– Camilla

 

Deportation??

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As most of you probably know, yesterday Britain voted to leave the EU. I was just about to start my shift at work when I saw it on the BBC and it was pretty much what dominated all the conversions that day, both with the staff and residents.

Some were happy whilst others very sad and disappointed, and I think we were all very surprised when the prime minister David Cameron announced that he would resign. What is for sure is that it was a historic day.

I am not a big fan of writing about politics here on my blog, but because this event could potentially affect me directly I must say I was very disappointed and throughout the day started worrying about my own future. Since the UK is in the EU and Norway is a part of the EEA, I have been very spoiled since coming here. I dont have to worry about visas or my right to work or study, simply because it has already been fixed for me. I have not needed a visa or work permit, and I am realizing now how much I have taken that for granted. It probably sounds weird and even arrogant, but I have not really even considered myself a foreigner in London and over the years London has started to feel like my home. Yesterday it suddenly dawned upon me that I am actually a foreigner. The thought that I might one day have to leave here without wanting to has never really occurred to me until yesterday. This is not just the situation for me, but for thousands of people from all over the EU living in the UK. And of course I realize that there is many more from all over the world living in places they consider home but have an uncertain future and have to live in that limbo. I am here writing about the EU referendum because it is what has been on my mind the last two days.

As I woke up this morning I had gotten a little bit more used to the thought of these changes and started to relax a little bit. After all nothing is happening yet, and we do not know yet what the deal will be in the end as the UK is exiting the EU so until then I will go on with my life as usual and cross that bridge when I come to it. At least I will try to, after all I am a nervous Nellie who has not yet learned how to relax and stop worrying over anything unsettled.

Both Greg and I had a day of today, the first in a long time. Because he works Monday to Friday and I work 12 hours shifts that often land on a weekend it has been weeks since we had a day together just the two of us. Unfortunately it was raining and thundering most of the day but we decided to make the most of it.

We went out for lunch and had some amazing cheese burgers at a place in Westfield, Stratford called The Shake Shack. After having a very healthy week it was absolutely amazing to have a “cheat day” and eat some good old cheeseburgers and fries.

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After our lunch it was pouring down rain so we decided to take the tube around to some places we dont know to well to see if it is somewhere we might look for a place to rent. We are about to start house hunting for our own place to live. We currently live in one room in a house, were we have been living since February and now it is about time we get a place of our own. Better get it now before they deport me. Oof no hopefully not.

Well, now I am of to go wake up Greg from his nap, put out some sweets and enjoy the rest of my day of with my amazing man before work starts again tomorrow.

I hope you all have a great Saturday night, and we will talk again tomorrow.

– Camilla