26 Going On 90

Worst possible start to the week!
Early this morning I got up to get some water and as I sat up in bed and looked to my side I felt a little click in my neck and a painful icing feeling rushed down my side.
That was it for the day, my neck locked itself and all day I have not been able to move my neck a milliliter without getting a shock of pain down my neck and back.

Today that I had planned to be such a nice day and great start to the week turned out a complete fiasco.

The first hour of the morning I walked around the living room in desperation to get my neck to stop hurting. If I stood up, sat down or walked around, it wouldn’t make a difference, I got such painful crams in the neck not matter what I did. Lying down was not an option as it was far to painful, not to mention that even with the help of Greg I could barely get back up.
I have had a stiff neck that could spasm a little a few times in the past, but it has never even come close to what it was today. After having put a hot water bottle around it for over an hour the spasms became less intense and I was left with a neck that I could not move but at least it wasn’t painful unless I accidentally moved it.

I struggled for a while to get my clothes on, and I had to get Greg to make my breakfast. (Isn’t he sweet) A shower was our of the question and so was putting any make up on.

So off to work I went, with a head tilted to the left, slightly gross, unwashed and with a pale undone face. I defiantly did not look ready for a work environment.
After walking three times slower than I normally would to the train station I arrived only to find out my train had been cancelled and therefore the next one was packed.

I was so terrified anyone would bump into me I kept putting my hands in front of me as for protection. I can only imagine how ridiculous I must have looked standing with a crocked back, a awkwardly positioned head and my hands in front of me.
I did feel like I was 90 years old, and I am sure I looked the part too!

Being delayed by the train I was 15 minutes late to work, so everyone was there as I came in and as I walked in the door everyone started asking “What happened too you?” A bit embarrassed I answered “Is it that obvious?” to what I got the reply “Oh my god what happened to your neck??”
When I left my house I thought perhaps no one would notice and my frail appearance was all in my head, but apparently not.

At work we tried everything we could possible do, the nurses brought me painkillers, heating lotions, muscle lotions, and lotions to ease pain. The OT gave me tips to exercises I could do to loosen my neck, but nothing worked! In fact the longer I sat at my desk, the stiffer my neck got and the more the muscles in my back started acting up. By the time I left work I felt so tired just from holding my own head up.

I tried going to bed at 9 today, as I am absolutely exhausted, both from lack of sleep last night and being so tired in my body. All I want right now is to relax my back.
But lying in bed my neck started cramping so much I had to get up. (something that took about 20 minutes to do haha).

So here I am sitting up next to Greg with my head staring forward and with my Pingu penguin water bottle strapped to my neck.
What a fantastic way to start the week! My body is starting my match the age of my old soul.

In all seriousness though I hope and pray it will be gone by tomorrow, so I can write a less complaining post and embarrass myself slightly less. How I miss mobility!

– Camilla

 

 

Time Pressure and Management

This month I am working normal office hours 9 – 5 something I am not used to.
Being a carer I normally work 12 hours shift, something that means that I work only 3 or 4 days a week when I am full time.

Although I dont get time for anything else than waking up and going to sleep in between those long shift, when my work week is over I have 3 or 4 days completely of.
Now that I am in five days a week I am suddenly feeling this time pressure every Londoner talks about.
20160317_080009I though that being used to 12 hours shifts, going to 8 hours a day would leave me with so much extra time every day. But even though my days are relatively short, with travel time I end up not getting much time to do much when I come home.

Lately I have been trying to get a run done in the morning before I get ready for work, although it means my alarm goes of at 5 am. It is great getting an early start, however that does leave me tired throughout the day unless I get to bed at 9 or 10 at night.

Living in London travel can easily at times take more than two hours in rush time, meaning that at times we get home at 7 or even 8 leaving us with two hours to make dinner and have some quality time before heading to bed.
Of course two hours is not bad, we have time for dinner, conversation and what else we need to do.
But like everyone else we have so many extra things that needs to be done, such as housework, fixing whatever we need to do online and general chores that I can tell at least on this end is suffering.

I defiantly feel the need to manage my time better, the last few weeks working office hours it has become clear that that is really not my strength. Surely when families with full days of work and children in the house can manage it well, I should be able to too!

Doing my workout in the morning has been the first step, now I just have to work out how to manage the rest of my day! Anyone having any tips for this is very appreciated, lets just say that.

Dont get me wrong, I am loving this new challenge at work, learning to do some administrative task. Having been a carer since I was 18 both full time and next to uni this is brand new to me and I love the challenge and learning to do that as well. It is the first time I am heading to work in office clothes rather than my carer uniform, it feels strange as well as fun. Learning how to do new things is always exiting!

I find is so funny how one always thinks that everyone else’s days seems much easier to manage until we get our days changed to what they have and then start to see that there are challenges with that too.

When I worked 12 hours a day, I was always so jealous seeing people on the commute heading of to their days that would end well before mine. Always thinking how much they would get done in a day.
I am sure in October when I am back to working 12 hours I will quickly go back to thinking that same thing, but for now am defiantly starting to understand the challenges of time pressure that most people experience. Especially in big cities where the travel time can be half a working day!
DSCF1152S0021126S0031129DSCF1154Today after coming home I have been making dinner for myself, Greg and James, before catching up on my blogging and that has been it for today. Now I am headed of to bed before an exiting and busy day tomorrow.

I hope you have all had a lovely day, and that you managed to manage your time better than me!

Good night!

– Camilla

June Come and Gone

As we are in the last few hours of this day, we are leaving June behind and welcoming July. It is so strange to think that the first summer month is already over. Time really goes by so quickly, it feels as if we just started the year and here we are, already half way through it! Where does the time go? I guess it is a good sign though, it is said that time flies by when we have fun, so I am thinking that I must have a lot of fun. Or perhaps I am just too busy. I would say that it is probably a bit of both.

Now that June has come and gone I want to take the last hours of it to reflect back on the month and how it has been for me. I always enjoy reading these summaries on other blogs, so now I will make one here, of my own highlights of the month.

Best thing about this month: 
The best thing about June for me must have been that I have finally started (although slowly) to get in a healthy routine of exercise and eating. I have cut down a lot on sugar and started running in the park on my days of from work. On the days I have work I have walked at least one way to or from which is about two hours.
I can defiantly tell the difference just by having started, maybe not so much in the mirror, but I feel much happier and I have much more energy than before. I dont feel sick as much and in general I just feel much better than in the months before.

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Worst thing that happened this month:
The real downer about this month for me personally was the result of the EU referendum. I have written a post about this a few days ago. Of course we dont know what exactly what will happen in the time coming with this, and what the future will look like, but for me who is here as a Norwegian it has caused a bit of stress and worrying about my future and it has of course been on my mind a lot since Friday.

Surprise of the month:
I PASSED MY EXAMS!!!! You really should have seen my face when I found out I had passed. As a serious student I probably should not reveal that it came as a surprise but I had in planted in my head that I would fail and had prepared myself for re-sits for about a month when I found out, phhhht thank god!

Book of the month:
“The Blue Between Sky and Water”
This book made my week a little while ago and really got me excited for adventure and wishing to be able to make a difference. It is written by Susan Abulhawa, the autor of “Mornings in Jenin”. I will write a review on it with more detail soon, but if you are looking for a good book to read, buy this one!

With work and no social life this month that was all of my summary. But although it has not been a month with much to say, it has been a great month, spent between work and with my wonderful man. I could not ask for much more.

Now it is time to look forward and make the most out of July. I hope everyone has had a wonderful June and wishing you all the best for July.

– Camilla